Date of rewrite: Oct. 17, 2002
Author: cheerful minion (firstname.lastname@example.org)
Pairing: Sam/Janet pre-slash (itís sort of a "first
time" story, only without sex <g>).
Category: missing scene/epilogue, humor (at least I hope itís
Season: three Ö set during and just after Urgo
Spoilers: Urgo; may be tiny spoilers for anything through season
three. Thereís also a tiny spoiler for Upgrades, despite the
fact that this occurs before that episode <g>.
Rating: PG-13ish for language
Summary: Janet wants to know what Urgo said about her.
Archive: Pink Rabbit, Singularity, Area52; anyone else, please ask
Disclaimer: Still donít own Ďem. They are the property of MGM,
Showtime, Gekko, Double Secret, and a whole bunch of other nice
folks. Iím just borrowing them for my own demented amusement. I
do this for fun, not money; aforementioned owners can feel free to
steal at will.
Notes: I want to thank stargazer for her in-depth comments; she
gave me some insights into how to fix some things I wasnít
terribly happy with in the original version. As always, comments
are welcome and feedback is very much appreciated. Hope you enjoy!
"So, what did he say?" Janet Fraiser could hear
the impatient edge of curiosity in her own voice as she stared up
expectantly into Samantha Carterís face. Sheíd been dying to ask that
question for hours now, and could hardly wait for the answer.
"Ouch!" was the immediate and unexpected reply.
"He said ouch?" Janet shook her head briefly,
trying to decide if she was suddenly hearing things or if her friend was
suddenly making no sense. Given that Colonel OíNeill had been
complaining at great length about the invisible alienís talkative
nature, she couldnít imagine that Urgo had said something as simple and
monosyllabic as "ouch." Then again, sheíd been blessed with
the inability to hear the man, so what did she know about his speech
"No, I said ouch. Youíre hurting me, Janet."
Samís voice was soft, but the rebuke in her tone was clear.
Janet dropped her attention from the deep-pooled blue eyes
back to the bandaging job she was doing on the other womanís arm. No
wonder her friend had cried out Ė she had managed to get adhesive tape
stuck to a corner of the livid burn marring Samís pale skin. Nice move,
Fraiser, she chastised herself; it wasnít something likely to get her
into the Caring Professionals Hall of Fame anytime in the near future.
Murmuring the appropriate apologies, she carefully peeled
the tape off the injured skin, wincing at Samís barely audible groan.
She quickly and efficiently re-bandaged the area, mentally cursing her own
clumsiness all the while. It wasnít like her Ė not at all Ė and she
knew exactly what, or rather who, was the cause. And it wasnít Sam,
despite the fact that the majorís mere presence seemed to send
butterflies dancing in Janetís stomach. At least the butterflies didnít
cause her to forget everything sheíd learned in Bandaging 101. They just
left her hormones feeling carbonated.
"So what did he say about me?" she queried
again, smoothing her hand soothingly over the now-neat edges of the
bandage, enjoying the soft feel of the skin under her fingers.
She looked back up in time to see Sam cock her head to the
side, studying the doctor intently. "What did who say?"
Janet offered a brief laugh, totally devoid of mirth.
"Him Ö that annoying little man that only SG1 can see." She
paused for effect, feeling her mouth curl in distaste at the mere thought
of the name. "Urgo."
Samís answering sigh was little more than blowing breath
out between her teeth. "Annoying is a vast understatement," she
complained emphatically. "At least you havenít had to listen to
him." The blonde shook her head, as if to erase the memories like she
would an Etch-A-Sketch drawing, before continuing. "Heís said a lot
of things about you, Janet; heís talked practically non-stop since heís
been here. When do you mean?"
Janet let her fingers drop away from Samís arm, not
because of the statement, but because she was suddenly conscious that the
gentle massage had no medicinal value. And it had gone on long enough that
the other woman might actually pull her head out of its usual home in the
theoretical stratosphere and notice the physical contact. If she noticed
it, she might actually ask about it. And explaining her own "more
than friends" fantasies to her friend was just not on her list of top
ten favorite activities for the decade. It didnít even crack the top
As far as she could tell, Sam was straight, celibate, and
not interested in any relationship other than her love affair with
Janet shook her head quickly, trying to clear out all
those distracting thoughts, forcing her mind back to the question and
answer game they were playing. She could do this Ö she really could. She
reached up to comb her fingers quickly through her hair, trying to remove
the tactile memories of Samís soft skin.
Finally able to let her curiosity get the better of her,
Janet clarified her original question. "When General Hammond and I
ran into you in the hallway, Urgo said something about me and you told him
it was rude. What did he say?"
Sam sighed again. "Oh that."
"Oh that?" Janet echoed. Parroting people wasnít
her usual conversational tactic, but given that her voice was about an
octave above its usual tone, she figured it was clear she wasnít just
Samís eyes narrowed in concern as she gazed intently at
the doctor. "Are you okay, Janet? You seem even more on edge than we
are. And you canít even see or hear Urgo."
She smiled at the caring written across Samís cherubic
face, and felt herself relax at the sight. She managed a chuckle and
folded her arms across her chest as she leaned back against the wall.
"Letís just say itís a very good thing I havenít been able to
see your little friend Ö or Iíd be able to strangle him." Not
that she would ever be able to make good on that threat, but there were
times when she wished her innate prohibition against harming other people
wasnít so damn strong.
She saw a flash of amusement in Samís eyes; it wasnít
the first time Janetís evil thoughts about exasperating people had
managed to entertain the other woman. She rolled her eyes at her friend
and put on her best martyrís voice. "General Hammond has been
hounding me for days for answers to the questions of how to get rid of
Urgo and of whether or not you all were sane. Not one of the easier times
in my life, to be sure."
She thought, but didnít add, ĎNot to mention the
sinking feeling I got every time I looked at your brain scans and realized
that there was nothing I could do to remove the devices implanted in you.í
Sam looked completely sympathetic, almost as if she had
read the unspoken thought. "Well, as far as I can tell Ö the EM
pulse worked, so with any luck this whole nightmare is finally over. I
mean, I havenít seen or felt Urgo since I activated the pulse."
Now it was Janetís turn to sigh. "I just hope it
was that easy." She was a realist by nature, and in her experience,
nothing was as easy as it sounded when it came to the SGC Ö and SG-1 in
particular. They had some of the most miraculously good luck imaginable,
but it was balanced by the ability to land themselves in situations that
proved Murphyís Law to be optimistic.
"You donít think it worked." It was a
statement, not a question, and there was no rancor in Carterís tone. It
was part of the give and take the duo had in their working relationship
Ö that ability to voice objections or raise doubts without either taking
Janet unfolded her arms and pushed away from the wall as
if the minor bit of activity would help her thoughts fall into some
semblance of order. "I donít know," she admitted, coming to
stand beside Sam. "Iím just afraid itís too soon to tell for sure
Ö after all the EM pulse could simply have disabled the system
Samís face crinkled into a frown. "Iím afraid of
the same thing. Daniel and the colonel were ready to celebrate right after
I activated the pulse and Urgo disappeared, and I told them, ĎWeíll
see.í I just donít know enough about the alien technology to be sure.
I just hate having to wait, not knowing if my efforts have been all in
vain or not."
Janet put a reassuring hand on Samís shoulder, massaging
gently. "I know just what you mean Ö Iíve been incredibly
frustrated because I donít know enough to be able to help you." She
knew the qualifier was actually an understatement, but there were limits
to how well the English language could express strong feelings.
Sam smiled at the doctor. "At least youíve taken us
seriously and didnít rush to the conclusion that weíre insane. And youíve
done the best you can, given the circumstances."
Janet felt her face curl into a smile to match Samís.
Sheíd been feeling inadequate for days now, and she didnít realize how
much the reassurance meant until she actually heard it. "Thanks Ö
that means a lot." Suddenly realizing that her friend could probably
use some kind words of her own, she added, "So have you, yíknow.
The fact that you even came up with an idea for how to get rid of Urgo is
pretty incredible. Iím always amazed by how intuitive and brilliant you
She saw the fierce blush that lit Samís face at her
words, and saw the way the other woman squirmed slightly and stared
resolutely down at her feet. Janet felt her heart melt at the incredibly
endearing sight of a suddenly shy Samantha Carter. God, the way the other
woman made her feel.
"Uh Ö thanks." Samís voice was thick with
embarrassment. Janet wondered just why the other woman was so off-kilter
about that particular compliment. OíNeill had practically turned
"Sheís way smarter than the rest of us" into a catch phrase
that everyone used when talking about Carter. So she couldnít quite
figure out why sheíd gotten this reaction from her friend. Maybe she
should have just borrowed the colonelís stock phrase instead of coming
up with her own polysyllabic version.
She was still pondering that when Sam finally stopped
scrutinizing her shoes and looked back up at the doctor. Janet felt her
heart catch as she saw a flash of unreadable and intense emotion in the
big blue eyes. "I think youíre pretty amazing yourself,
Well, that wasnít exactly what sheíd been expecting to
hear, and she felt the heat rise in her own cheeks. It wasnít just from
the spoken words, but from the sudden sense that there was a whole other
meaning lying under the surface Ö one that hinted at some
more-than-just-friends feelings on her friendís part. And she couldnít
quite decide if Sam really meant something else by the words, or if she
was just hoping that she did.
It was Janetís turn to stutter "thanks" and
glance down at her feet. Yep, they were still there, attached to her legs
like always. She peeked up at her friend and found Sam staring at her. She
wasnít too surprised when the blonde swallowed hard and turned her head
away, apparently embarrassed about being caught staring. There was a long,
awkward moment of silence.
Janet cleared her throat slightly, still off guard by the
compliment Ö and by the fact that her friend had been staring at her.
She decided maybe it was time to get back onto more neutral ground before
she went ahead and made an idiot of herself by telling Sam just how she
felt about her. Besides, she reasoned with herself, you only think that
there was something more in those words because you want to be more than
friends with her. More likely than not, it was just a simple compliment.
She knew as well as anyone that while Carter could explain the most
esoteric ideas at length Ė great length Ė the woman was much less
confident talking about more mundane matters Ö and that included
anything from the emotional realm.
Forcing a deep breath into her lungs, Janet forcibly
pushed her inappropriate thoughts and fantasies back to the red light
district of her brain. Looking straight at Carter, who still had her eyes
averted, she said in as normal a tone as she could manage, "I do hope
your idea worked because I know Urgo has been driving you all to
distraction. And I think Colonel OíNeill is going to actually lose his
sanity if he has to stay cooped up in the SGC any longer."
Sam laughed briefly, her gaze swinging back to Janetís.
There was an obvious note of relief in her voice at the change in topic.
"Daniel and I are getting lots of work done, but the colonel and Tealíc
donít do well with this extended downtime. Theyíve already destroyed
half the equipment in the gym." She paused for a moment, and then
leaned forward as if to whisper a secret. "General Hammond happened
to walk into the gym during one of their more Ö destructive sessions.
Daniel told me he could hear the reprimand all the way in his
Janet chuckled, having heard about the incident from one
of her nurses. "Well, with any luck, Urgo is gone and the devices in
your brain have deactivated themselves. I just need to run a full set of
tests on you and the guys to see whatís going on inside your
At that statement, Sam levered herself off the exam table,
as if trying to make her escape. Janet raised a stern eyebrow and refolded
her arms. "And where do you think youíre going?"
Sam chuckled and swatted Janetís arm playfully. "Iím
not trying to escape, but I did promise General Hammond that I would
de-brief him on what exactly happened with the EM pulse after I got my arm
looked at." She must have seen the doctorís dubious reaction to her
statement because she gave a martyred sigh. "Besides, I know better
than to try and escape when you have your mind set on torturing us."
Janet rolled her eyes. It wasnít the most elegant
expression in the world, she was certain, but it was about the only
suitable one she could come up with. She didnít tend to stand around
practicing facial expressions for possible future use. Her verbal comeback
was much sharper, honed as it was from frequent sparring matches with OíNeill.
"Youíll just have to be last then. Itíll give you more time to
dread whatís coming."
Sam laughed, and there was genuine affection in her eyes.
"Youíre going to have to try a lot harder than that. I know the
guys quake in their boots at these exams, but you havenít ever managed
to scare me."
Janet raised her eyebrow so far it felt like at any moment
it might disappear into her hairline. Trying to come up with a suitable
retort, her tone was dry as burnt toast. "Guess I do need to try
harder so I have you at my mercy. Maybe Iíll just have to get a little
rough when I examine you."
As soon as the words left her mouth and she heard them in
her own ears, she wished fervently that she could call them back. It wasnít
like she and Sam never traded borderline flirtatious comments before, but
this was so far over the line that she expected a resounding slap across
the face at any moment Ö a well-deserved slap.
She steeled herself to see a hurt look on her friendís
face and waited for some verbal rebuke. She knew that Sam had a history
for being involved with manipulative and emotionally abusive men, and she
was afraid sheíd tapped into some bad memories for the other woman with
that comment. The response she actually got surprised her to the point of
speechlessness, and showed her a side of the other woman she had never
really seen Ö one that she rather doubted Sam was entirely aware of
"Ah, but what if I like that?" the blonde said
in a playful and suggestive whisper. Janet saw another flash of intense
and unreadable emotion in those blue eyes. It only lasted a moment before
it was replaced with an amused twinkle, and Sam flashed an impish smile as
she swept out of the room, leaving the doctor alone and flabbergasted.
It wasnít until several minutes later, after sheíd
summoned OíNeill, Daniel, and Tealíc to the infirmary for a round of
tests, that she realized Sam had completely sidestepped her original
A Week Later Ö
Janet Fraiser looked up from the bevy of test tubes in
front of her, as if the incessantly drumming fingers of Samantha Carter
were a summons. Looking across the barrier of the worktable, she raised an
eyebrow as she regarded the blonde woman. Normally, Sam was an asset in
the lab, not a potential threat to the safety of the various glass vials
and microscopes and other such fragile things.
Carter at least had the grace to look chagrined. As the
doctor watched with a raised eyebrow, Sam quickly pulled her fingers off
of the surface sheíd been tapping, the abruptness of the move knocking
over two Ė thankfully empty Ė containers. Janet felt her eyebrow rise
even higher on her forehead as she watched her friendís deft fingers
rescue the containers from an ignominious death on the floor. "Iím
sorry, Janet. Iím just a little anxious to find out the results of the
second set of tests."
Janet indulged herself in a smile at her friend. She knew
perfectly well that had either Daniel or OíNeill been the person
displaying such obvious impatience, she would have been far less tolerant.
But she couldnít find it in her heart to be annoyed by Sam, even though
her answer was laced with the subtle sarcasm that she had been told on
more than one occasion was her strong suit.
"Well, yíknow, if you had waited to come down here
until AFTER Iíd actually gotten the results, you wouldnít be nearly as
Not that she could find Sam anything other than
distracting, since the mere sight of the cheerful blonde head made Janetís
breath catch. But that was a different kind of distracting, one that the
doctor was still coming to terms with herself.
She watched the other womanís face crinkle in thought as
Sam scrutinized her, trying to decide whether or not she was really
annoyed. She tried hard to look as inscrutable as Tealíc, but the other
woman must have seen some trace of her amusement because instead of
bubbling over with apologies, Sam only flashed an abashed smile.
"Itís just that Iím going stir crazy in my
quarters. And my lab is no better Ö Iím going stir crazy there
too." As if to illustrate the point, the woman stepped away from the
workbench and started to pace Ö a delightful and oh-so-productive habit
that sheíd picked up from Colonel OíNeill.
Janet glanced down back down at the tissue samples she was
working with, and tuned out the clump-clump of the other womanís boots.
She was almost finished with the last of the tests she was performing, and
wanted to get it finished before she allowed herself to be sidetracked
into a conversation. It wasnít a crucial test, by any means, since sheíd
left those in the hands of her very capable lab technicians. If it had
been, she wouldnít have let Sam into the lab in the first place.
She wrote down her results, placed the samples back in the
storage unit, and then stood up straight and stretched. Throughout it all,
she remained well aware that the other woman was still intent on wearing a
tread into the floor. Now that Janetís preoccupation with her work had
lifted, she became fully aware of the last thing Sam said.
Frowning, she had to replay the sentences in her head
three times to make sure sheíd heard correctly. Sam? Stir crazy?
Somehow, the thought just didnít quite compute, and she could clearly
hear the disbelief standing out in her tone as she spoke. "Youíre
bored? I figured youíd relish every second of time you had to work on
transcribing your lab notes or running tests on naquada or working on that
book youíve always wanted to write on wormhole physics."
She fully intended to stop there, to not let her
half-resolved feelings for Sam spill over, to not add any sense of guilt
to the abundant wellspring the other woman already had. But the words were
out of her mouth before she could think about them, her ignored feelings
hijacking her rational mind. "After all, you rarely come over to see
Cassandra and I anymore Ö youíre always busy with your projects when
you arenít working. I guess I just figured you would love having all
this time to spend on them without having any outside distractions."
She wanted to slap herself at the sharp, bitter note in
her voice. A part of her knew that no matter how true her observations
were, she didnít have any reason to feel as strongly about things as she
did. After all, it wasnít like she and Sam were married or committed to
each other in any binding way. But in that moment she became unequivocally
aware of the fact that her feelings for Sam were making her jealous Ė
painfully jealous Ė of all the things that pulled the other woman away
from her. She had a right to feel that way to a small extent, she knew,
since Sam wasnít exactly the most attentive friend on the face of the
planet. But she had no right to be as overwhelmingly resentful as she felt
Ė despite her wishful thinking Sam was not her lover, and feeling
jealous on that level was not at all fair to the woman.
She opened her mouth, wanting to say something Ė
ANYTHING Ė to erase the sting of her words and make things right again,
especially since Sam had turned away as if struck. But before she could
find any words, Carter spoke quietly. "I guess I deserved that."
The denial was on Janetís lips, but Sam turned back
towards her and caught her eyes, and once again there was intense,
unreadable emotion in those liquid blue eyes.
The blonde waved the denial away, her eyes locked on Janetís
face. "I know I havenít been around a lot, and I should have known
you would be hurt by that." She paused, and Janet got the impression
she was choosing every word very carefully. "Itís just that I didnít
want to wear out my welcome. I really Ö enjoy Ö the time I spend with
you Ö and with Cassie Ö and I guess I was afraid I was taking
advantage of you and that you would get tired of me being around all the
"Never," Janet breathed, a flutter in her heart
at the little confession, happy beyond rational thought that Sam enjoyed
their time together, even if just as friends. She took a step forward,
closing the distance between them. "We both love having you
They stared at each other, a long moment of silence
swirling in the space between them, unspoken words stillborn on the air.
And then, in perfect, unplanned chorus, they both burst out with, "Iím
sorry; Iíve been an idiot."
And then, once again in perfect synch, they burst into
tension relieving laughter.
Several deep breaths later, Janet was still chuckling
slightly as she said slowly, "We can be idiots together. At least
that way weíll be in good company."
Samís voice was quiet, more for herself than for Janet,
as she whispered, "Damn it; why did he have to be right?"
Janet didnít even have to ask whom the other woman was
talking about; she knew instantly that it was the invisible menace known
as Urgo. And that suddenly reminded her that Sam never had answered her
earlier question about what he said. Given that her brain was perhaps
still oxygen deprived from laughing so hard, she couldnít resist her
curiosity. She walked around the edge of the table and stood directly in
front of her friend.
"So," she drawled slowly, "what did he
To her great surprise, Sam turned slightly away, leaning
back against the table edge. Thankfully, the table was bolted to the
floor, so she couldnít further endanger any unsuspecting glass pieces.
Janet was even more surprised when the other woman cupped her head in her
hands and shook it slightly. "No Ö itís not like that," she
moaned. "I mean, what he said is not what I meant Ö and, oh god Ö
you really donít want to know." Carter once again moaned
dramatically. The display might have softened Janetís resolve if she
wasnít insanely curious about not only what he had said about her, but
also what he had said to make unflappable Samantha Carter so completely
"Yes, I do want to know."
Sam moaned again. "No, you donít."
Janet didnít really feel like playing that verbal game
any longer, so she grasped for a way to sidestep it. Not an easy chore,
considering that her friend was nearly as stubborn as she was, and even
better at keeping her mouth shut when she didnít want to talk about
something. After a long moment of silence, during which Sam kept her head
in her hands, Janet said reasonably, "How do you know that I donít
want to know? I know you think you know what I want to know, but this time
you donít know because I really do want to know."
That convoluted sentence snapped Samís head upright, her
face like a jigsaw puzzle as she tried to decipher what Janet had just
said. The doctor couldnít help herself; she smirked for a moment as she
watched the wheels turn in the brilliant mind across from her. It wasnít
often that she could throw her friend for such a loop, and she rather
enjoyed the sight of it.
Sam looked up at her, but before she could even get her
mouth open, an insistent knock came at the door, even as it was pushed
open. Doctor Warner appeared in the doorway, a thick sheaf of papers in
his hand and a sheepish expression on his face. "Am I
"No," both women chorused, and he walked over to
the dynamic duo. He nodded at Sam, acknowledging her presence, before
devoting his full attention to Janet.
"Since weíve got a little time before the full test
results come back from SG1, I thought maybe I could talk to you for a
minute about the long term prognosis for Captain Conners. Heís healing
quite nicely from the surgery, given the extent of the injury to his
shoulder and arm, and there are some further treatment options Iíd like
to discuss with you. But if this is a bad time Ö"
Janet made a vague gesture towards the table and her
semi-forgotten test results, fully intending to ask Warner to come and
talk to her later. It wasnít so much that she had any work left to
finish as that she wanted to finish the conversation Ö but it seemed
like a convenient excuse. But before she could actually verbalize the
sentiment, she realized that Sam had not only managed to get away from
her, but was already half way out the door. ĎOh brotherí, she thought
to herself, Ďthis whole avoidance thing is getting really old.í
She was careful not to let any of her exasperation show in
her tone as she asked gently, "Major?"
Sam paused, a guilty look crossing her face as if she were
entirely capable of reading Janetís mind. "I Ö well Ö youíre
busy and since you donít have our test results back Ö Iíll just go
now Ö uh, Iíve got work to do. Iíll be back later."
And before Janet could muster a single verbal response,
the other woman took off as if attempting to disprove the notion that
humans are incapable of moving faster than the speed of light.
A couple hours later, Janet was back in her office with
SG1ís test results in hand. She was reading through them for the second
time when Sam made her reappearance. Detachedly, the doctor found it
highly amusing that the other woman had managed to pull herself together
and was now in her best professional mode. Not that she found it amusing
that Carter was being so impersonal with her, but the shift in mood held a
perverse sense of entertainment.
"Well Ö everything looks normal. How are you
feeling?" The question was actually irrelevant, given that sheíd
already talked to Sam and knew perfectly well how she was feeling. Well,
how she was physically feeling, anyway. The question was more just to put
Sam at ease, to try and help her regain the composure sheíd lost
Unfortunately, the tactic didnít quite work. Samís
response was polite and deflective as she said, "Great. I just want
to get back to work."
Janet mustered up a quick smile, and then turned her
attention back to the test results and tried shifting gears a bit, still
trying to help her friend relax.
"Well, assuming you are cleared by next weekend,
Cassandra and I are going to the lake and we are going to rent a rowboat.
Would you like to come along?"
Her heart warmed as a genuine, beatific smile lit Samís
face, and the other woman responded with an enthusiastic yes. Janet felt
her own face split in an answering grin; sheíd managed to get things
back on an easy footing between them and managed to get herself a date of
sorts with this woman she adored. And since Urgo seemed to have gone on
his merry little way, things seemed to be finally going right.
She dismissed Sam with the request to send Daniel down.
Watching the blonde leave, Janet was surprised to hear her singing,
"Row, row, row your boat." And then she felt a familiar sense of
Urgo-induced horror as she heard three male voices chiming in. She looked
up at the video monitors that were linked to the cameras installed in the
quarters of SG1 in order to keep a constant eye on the Urgo-infected
people. Yep, sure enough, Samís teammates were singing Ö or, in OíNeillís
case, attempting to sing. That sort of synchronization could only mean one
thing; Samís little experiment hadnít worked.
The only thought she could muster was the exhausted, ĎOh,
shit, not again.í
Urgo was FINALLY gone. Janet wasnít sure who was more
relieved by that fact Ė herself and General Hammond, or the members of
SG1. The team had gone back to the planet where they acquired their little
"friend", gotten rid of him, and then came back with a nice case
of temporary amnesia Ė thinking they had just stepped through the gate
moments before and having no memory of what had happened.
Daniel had actually accused Hammond and Fraiser of being
nuts. Oh, he didnít use that precise phrase, but he made it clear in his
gently wordy way that they were Ė perhaps Ė delusional. It wasnít
until Janet showed them some of the security tapes where they were
interacting with an invisible presence that the memory came back into
their minds and they could debrief the general as to what happened to Urgo.
Needless to say, OíNeill was decidedly less than thrilled with Janet for
giving them their memories back in such clarity.
Theyíd all been eager to get back to work Ė so eager,
in fact, that both Jack and Daniel seemed to have forgotten the concept of
caution, which wasnít Danielís strong suit under the best of
circumstances. On their first actual mission, every member of SG1 was
injured: Jack, from a less than friendly encounter with the local version
of a jackal; Tealíc, when he rushed in to rescue the colonel from the
creature; Daniel, from a less than friendly encounter with the local
villagers; Sam, when she rushed in to rescue the archeologist from the
mob. The injuries were nothing life-threatening Ė just enough claw marks
and scrapes and bruises and knife wounds to ground the whole team.
OíNeill, expectedly grouchy at this development,
promptly decided to haul his team, Janet, and Cassie up to his favorite
cabin on the lake for a fishing expedition. Cassandra was thrilled at the
prospect of getting to go on another outing so soon after getting back
from the rowboat excursion with Sam and Janet. Daniel and Tealíc were
not nearly as thrilled, but they felt like humoring Jack.
The womenís reactions, on the other hand, were decidedly
less than enthusiastic. In fact, some of them were downright unprintable.
Sam hated fishing with a passion, and Janetís opinion was that it was
one of the most boring hobbies ever taken up by humans. In the end, theyíd
finally conceded and gone on the trip. They both insisted it was because
the bribes were so good Ö they didnít have to fish, Daniel had brought
gourmet coffee and Belgian chocolates, and the colonel was paying for
Neither woman mentioned Cassieís earnest and incessant
The afternoon sunlight streamed in the window, creating a
pool of warmth in the living room of the cabin. Janet sighed blissfully,
soaking up the rays like a cat, well aware that she spent entirely too
much of her life underground. Despite her reluctance to even come on this
trip, she had to admit to herself she was glad she had. The guys and
Cassandra spent much of their time out on the lake, leaving her and Sam
alone to watch videos or read books. It was nice. It was more than nice.
Nothing like having several hours alone every day with the woman she
Janet looked across to the other side of the couch, as she
absent-mindedly massaged the feet that were lying in her lap. Sam was
stretched out with her nose deep in a book, the title and subtitle of
which contained enough twenty-five dollar words to scare off any casual
reader. Janet was impressed with her friendís studious nature, until she
suddenly realized Carter hadnít turned a single page in the ten minutes
sheíd been watching her. Further furtive examination revealed that Samís
eyes were locked in one spot, rather than moving across the page.
ĎOk, either sheís completely stumped by one of those
big words, or sheís not actually reading,í Janet mused. She chose the
latter option, figuring that Sam was well acquainted with an invention
known as a dictionary.
"He-ey, Sam," she said softly, wincing as even
the low whisper caused the other woman to start. Quickly she continued,
"Are you okay? You seem like youíre a million miles away."
Sam started to deny that anything was wrong, her features
settling into a falsely pleasant look. Then she seemed to come to some
sort of decision, sighing softly and letting a troubled look hover in her
eyes. "I was just thinking about Urgo."
Janet could not stop herself from giving an extremely
dramatic sigh. "Why is it that heís still here, even though heís
Sheíd already walked Carter through several
conversations about the annoying little man, since Sam was not sure theyíd
done the right thing by returning him to the planet. The doctor could hear
her own exasperation as she started, "You did the best you could to
deal with a new and sentient life form, especially since Ö"
An interrupting hand landed gently on her leg as Sam put
her book on the coffee table and sat up, scooting close to Janet.
"No, not that," she offered succinctly.
Janet was all too aware of the heat of the other womanís
fingers, and she found herself mourning the loss of that simple contact
when Sam moved her hand away. Then, she became aware that her friend had
draped her arm over the back of the couch Ö and her hand had dropped
absent-mindedly to rest on the doctorís shoulder. At least she assumed
it was an absent-minded gesture since Carter was staring off into the
distance as if trying to collect her thoughts from the corners of the
Janet felt like she was holding her breath as she waited
for the blonde to speak. Samís words came slowly. "I was thinking
about something he said to me."
After a long, breathless pause, the woman swallowed hard
and Janet could see that her muscles had tensed, as if she were bracing
herself to speak. The continuation of the sentence came in a rush, as if
Sam couldnít get the words out any other way. "He said that you
feel the same way about me that I feel about you Ö that youíre as
attracted to me as I am to you Ö and that we would make the perfect
couple. He kept nagging me to talk to you Ö to tell you that I care for
you as a lot more than just a friend."
Janetís heart stopped beating for a minute or twenty as
she replayed the sentence backwards and forward and sideways to make sure
that sheíd heard it correctly. Was Sam actually saying what she thought
she was saying? Or had she just suddenly slipped into an alternate
reality? Maybe someone had slipped her some drugs and she was
hallucinating. Cautiously, she glanced around to see if there were any
talking pieces of furniture or some cartoon creatures to show that she was
completely imagining things.
Before Janet could kick-start her mouth into forming words
and doing something other than hanging open in a gape, she felt the other
woman pull away from her. She looked up as Sam levered herself off the
couch, seeing a fierce red blush spread across the pale features, the blue
eyes averted from Janetís face.
Sam was trying to stumble backwards and away from the
couch, her movements hampered by the fact that the coffee table was in the
way. "I Ö Iím sorry Ö I shouldnít have said that Ö I uh Ö
uh Ö um Ö sorry, Janet Ö"
The doctor wanted desperately to reach out a hand to stop
the hasty retreat or to say something to let Sam know that the feelings
were very much mutual. Unfortunately, her body and brain seemed stuck on
pause. Fortunately, fate chose that moment to play a hand in the little
Sam was making her way backwards when she banged her heel
on the leg of the coffee table. She pulled her leg forward in an
instinctive reaction to pain, which caused her to lose her balance, try to
correct her balance, and finally topple over in a completely ungracious
heap on the floor.
Mindful of the various bruises and stitched cuts on Samís
body, Janetís doctorly instincts took over, unfreezing her as she
bounded off the couch and landed on her knees at the fallen womanís side
in roughly 2.2 seconds. "Oh god, Sam Ö did you hurt yourself?"
The blonde had her eyes screwed tightly shut; Janet couldnít
decide if it was from embarrassment or pain. Her suspicion that it was the
former was confirmed when a tiny voice said, "No new injuries except
to my pride and dignity."
The blue eyes remained tightly shut, as the doctor looked
her friend over anyhow, reassuring herself that none of the wounds had
been reopened in the fall. Janet was starting to say something, when Samís
faint whisper cut her off.
"Iím really sorry, Janet. I shouldnít have
listened to Urgo. I didnít mean to offend you Ö I Ö never wanted to
make you uncomfortable or damage our friendship."
Janet felt her heart lurch. God, if her friend only knew.
"I donít feel that way, Sam. Believe me."
The response made it quite clear that Sam was listening to
her own internal doubts, rather than to what Janet was saying. "I
just was hoping that maybe you felt the same way. I Ö Iím sorry."
Janet rolled her eyes, though the gesture was lost since
Sam still hadnít opened her eyes. "Trust me, itís really ok. Itís
more than ok."
She paused for a minute, not quite sure how to proceed,
especially since her friend was clearly having a field day berating
herself. She wasnít entirely sure she could get the message across with
mere words. After all, while she was undoubtedly more experienced in the
romance department than Carter, she was not precisely a Don Juan. Or would
that be a Dona Juana? After careful consideration she said quietly,
"Sam, look at me."
The blonde head shook emphatically. "Ouch, that
hurts." Her eyes remained tightly closed.
Janet tried again, even stroking the underside of the
womanís chin with a gentle finger, and coaxing the blonde head around.
"Címon, Sam, please look at me."
There was no response, and Janet felt suddenly at a loss.
While she felt certain denial had its place in the world, she remained
unconvinced that it was all that useful at the moment. Especially since
they didnít have all day to play this particular game of cat and mouse.
The guys and Cass would be back in another hour or so, and she knew that
it would look just a tad bit strange if they walked in on this tableau.
Unfortunately, as she knew, Sam was an expert in denial.
As she racked her brain for how to proceed, her instincts
took over and she bent down and kissed her friend. It wasnít a friendly
little kiss on the cheek, but rather a soft, searching kiss on the lips.
After a moment, she felt Samís mouth moving slowly against hers. When
the kiss finally broke so that the two didnít pass out from oxygen
deprivation, Janet saw that she had accomplished her goal: the other womanís
eyes were open wide and she was staring at her.
Samís question was uttered in a voice as thin as a
ghost. "Janet, is that what I thought it was?"
Despite the new and discomforting territory theyíd just
rushed into, Janet could not resist a soft laugh at the complete
uncertainty in the other womanís voice and at the complete absurdity of
the question. "Well, if you thought it was a kiss, then itís what
you thought it was."
Sam just stared up at Janet for a moment, apparently
trying to decide whether she was hearing things correctly. The doctor
reached out cautiously and lightly stroked the blondeís cheek, and was
rewarded with a sunny smile.
Samís expression and tone were both dreamy. "It was
a very nice kiss." She set her hands on the floor and pushed up into
a sitting position, her face growing thoughtful.
Janet could almost see the actual thoughts forming in the
other womanís head, and she spoke quickly before Sam could say another
word. "And yes, I meant to kiss you, and yes, Iíve wanted to kiss
you for a long time, and yes, Iím attracted to you." She could see
the relief spread over her friendís features and added quietly,
"And I think weíre very overdue for a very long talk."
"Oh yeah," Sam breathed, "Iíd say we have
a lot to talk about this evening Ö" She paused, as if reminding
herself where they were. "After everyone else is in bed, that
They sat for a moment, just staring at each other, and
there must have been an infectious sparkle in the blue eyes, since Janet
could feel herself grinning like a fool, and unable to keep from grinning.
Sam reached out a tentative finger and traced the contours
of Janetís face, then cradled the doctorís cheek in her hand. Janet
leaned into the soft caress, amazed not only at her own impulsiveness and
Samís impulsiveness, but at just how right it felt to be touched this
way by her friend.
Still lightly caressing, Sam said quietly, "I want
you to know that Iíve been attracted to you for a very long time Ö so
this isnít something new. I just wasnít ever sure that you would be
open to the possibility Ö and I didnít want to put either one of us in
an uncomfortable situation, given the whole Ďdonít ask, donít tellí
culture we work in."
Janet nodded emphatically. "Ditto."
That word caused a soft chuckle to escape Samís lips.
"I canít tell you how relieved I am that you feel the same way Ö
Iím not sure I could have lived with the embarrassment otherwise."
She paused briefly and then offered, "At least one good thing came
out of the whole Urgo experience."
It was like the curiosity switch in Janetís brain
flipped on at that sentence. In a subtle shift in mood, she sat up
straight and fixed Sam with her best "Iím not taking no for an
answer" look. Besides, she reasoned with herself, they needed
something to lighten the mood before everyone else came back. They would
have plenty of time later to talk about their more-than-friendly feelings.
Theyíd waited months to even admit them to each other, so waiting a few
more hours to talk about things would be like no time at all.
"So, if Urgo thought we would make such a perfect
couple, why did he say something rude about me in the hallway? And WHAT
did he say?"
Samís face had that unmistakable "deer in
headlights" look. She dropped her hand away from Janetís cheek and
moaned dramatically. "Youíre not going to give me any peace until I
tell you, are you?"
"Nope," came Janetís best voice of placid
"You really donít want to know."
Janet rolled her eyes at that. "If I didnít want to
know, why would I keep asking?"
That did the trickóoffering something even Samís
incredible penchant for logic couldnít refute. The blonde gave a
martyred sigh. "He said something rude because he was bored and
jealous of my feelings for you and a little hurt that I was trying to find
a way to shut him off. It wasnít really anything personal. As for what
he said Ö". She paused, and then reluctantly leaned forward to
whisper the words in Janetís ear.
Janet sat shock still as the whispered words burrowed in
to her brain. How dare he say that? She couldnít restrain her
indignation and burst out with, "Thatís incredibly rude! God, I
really didnít want to know that."
There was just the faintest trace of smugness in Samís
voice as she countered, "I told you so."
The end Ö
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